My wife said that I love my work too much to retire. Maybe she is right. However, as a neurologist and clinical director of the Alzheimer’s Center, my experience reminded me of the wise move to continue.
In fact, I have reached 60s – thus joining the fastest growing segment of our population – and I’ve been thinking about what changes in my cognitive skills will lead me to not want to continue working.
More specifically, I have started to develop a “willingness in working life,” similar to the high medical directives, but it clearly points to professional life.
Some of the patients we recently met in the center convinced me of the value and potential urgency of this action.
When I was starting out as a young physician, I noticed there were always a few older, formerly very accomplished doctors who would consistently stand up during important meetings and make irrelevant comments that caused me and others to cringe.
If I helped to take care of their patients, I was often struck by the mediocre treatment they were providing.
At the time, my youthful colleagues and I remained oblivious to the possibility that their fate could ever become ours.
Since then, I have had the opportunity to help care for many previously high-functioning professionals with progressive dementing illnesses.
Depending on the stage of the disease and the degree of disruption of brain systems important for self-awareness, patients have widely varied insight into their predicament and appreciation of the impact of their neurological disease on their work.
A desire to keep working
This lack of self-awareness was disturbingly evident in the case of a professor in her mid-60s who continued to give lectures, supervise students and even consult, despite being diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease of mild to moderate severity.
When strong cognitive-testing evidence of her deteriorating mental status and examples of her difficulty carrying out professional responsibilities were brought to her attention, she insisted that her problems were only minor.
For many of us, including this professor, work is not simply a job, but a calling. We may experience giving up work as losing our selves or at least a big chunk of who we are.
Members of my own profession are well known for their commitment to their work. Thus, it is not surprising that almost 30 percent of active U.S. physicians are over the age of 60.
Working into old age has many potential benefits. The intellectual and social stimulation derived from continuing to work as we grow old is very likely to promote brain health and counteract cognitive decline.
The accumulated knowledge and experience of seasoned workers benefit companies and organizations, and may help to offset expected personnel shortages in the future. Many of my older colleagues continue to be amazing sources of clinical wisdom and expertise.
Nonetheless, by the time we reach our 60s, most of us have developed some concerns about losing our cognitive faculties.
Fear of mental decline
Perhaps not unexpectedly, despite fears about the mental declines that might befall us, few of us have generated concrete strategies for addressing them.
Like other unpleasant possibilities, we tend to avoid thinking about them. For example, all of us will die, but more than half of us have not written a will.
She chose to share her diagnosis with close colleagues in her department. She, too, continues to teach, but she has done so with the support of other members of the faculty. Co-teaching classes, reducing workload and relying increasingly on written notes have provided a meaningful scaffolding for her to continue to offer her expertise to her students.
With the backing of our clinical team, she asked her colleagues to monitor her performance, and they agreed to share their observations. She is committed to using their feedback to guide future decisions about work.
Her example has led to an evolution of my thinking. I am no longer focused solely on determining a threshold for my eventual retirement. I am also seeking to lay the groundwork for handling a period of gradual mental decline and deterioration in my ability to function professionally. This will probably entail the development of a transitional plan consisting of accommodations, increased support and diminished responsibilities, similar to those adopted by my proactive patient.
Handling the decline
No blueprint exists to guide me in this process, so I have broken down this seemingly overwhelming task into manageable steps:
- Crafting a written document articulating advanced directives for work that represent a personal commitment to how, depending on my cognitive status, I would want to comport myself in the future.
- Sharing the document with others I trust, who can support me through this process.
- Recording a video that communicates my wishes and can be used to speak to my future self.
- Identifying a few peers or colleagues I can confide in, who can access my work and make a fair and reasonable assessment of my functioning.
- Explicitly empowering these individuals to share their observations with me.
- Finally, if concerns are raised, having a plan in place for evaluating — via formal assessment by a cognitive neurologist or geriatric psychiatrist — whether my decline exceeds the bounds of normal aging and is truly worrisome.
An occupational living will would not be legally binding. There is a fundamental difference between medical and professional advanced directives.
Medical advanced directives are created for circumstances in which we can no longer speak for ourselves. In contrast, when we reach the point when our advanced directives for work should be carried out, we will still have a voice and will be able to alter our plans, moving the goal posts of when to retire further down the road.
This raises the most daunting challenge of all: finding ways to ensure that we will abide by our previous commitments, made while in full control of our mental faculties.
No doubt we will need strong support from the individuals with whom we shared our advanced directives to steadfastly remind us of our previously stated intentions and to highlight the stark choices we now face.
Sticking to the plan
Admittedly, this whole topic is very sobering. However, as a guidepost, I remind myself that I don’t want to be that older physician who provides a low standard of care to my patients, embarrasses himself in front of colleagues or sullies the reputation he has built over decades.
I have thus been engaging in an animated inner dialogue to counter my own rationalizations for avoiding this process.
“Cognitive decline or dementia won’t happen to me,” I say to myself. Yet I know that even when doing everything right to reduce the risk — including exercising, eating well and staying mentally active — brain health is not guaranteed.
“I’ll know when I’m declining and deal with it then,” I halfheartedly assure myself. Unfortunately, all too often I have seen how brain disease has robbed my patients of their previous capacity for insight and self-awareness.
“If there’s a problem, my colleagues, friends or family will let me know.” Maybe. But if we have been powerful individuals in our field, our loved ones or more junior colleagues may generate excuses for our difficulties or be too afraid to speak the truth.
“If I decline enough to make costly, dangerous mistakes, the decision about retirement will be made for me.” Sure, but is that really the way I want to finish my career? For me, the answer to this question is a simple but resounding “no.”
So, despite my ongoing apprehension, I have begun to confront the possibility of future cognitive impairment. This has summoned me to reflect on what I care most about in my professional life and to seek ways to help ensure that my values, intentions and standards for work prevail, should this grim possibility become a reality.
I invite others to join me in this process. If we’re lucky, we won’t have to remember to thank ourselves in the future.